Phonecall

After sorting out the mess with the flowers I decided I had to find out what the damage is on my phone bill. It turns out that calling the US is very affordable, right on the edge of being cheap.  In fact, it's only marginally more expensive than calling a cell phone right here in Sweden.  I pay the same to talk across the Atlantic as if I call my parents in Norway!

That has me thinking down a very winding road.  I want to give Mr. B a call.  Maybe, if I can get in touch with him, we can work something out?
No, I don't really believe that any more, but I have to at least try.

I sent an e-mail and I sent flowers.  He's got to know by now that I'm not going to just slink away down a dark hole and be gone.  Calling is the next logical step in a very illogical situation, but I have to think this through.

What are the consequences for her if I call?  Will it make her life even harder?  He couldn't possibly hold her responsible for my actions, could he?
I know her very well, but I only know him by his online persona and through what she has told me of him. It's clear that she cares deeply about her father, and I don't want to upset that.

Quite frankly, I don't think I'm not the one damaging that right now.  He is.

This is such a mess.  All I want is a kinder tomorrow.