Holding my breath

An e-mail came in earlier.
It was just some newsletter, borderline spam, but it still happened.  I've got it set up so any high priority e-mail makes a different sound, and anything connected to her is very high priority.  Even with the low priority sound I still held my breath from the sound to having read the sender.

Every time my computer makes an unexpected sound, or my phone makes any sound at all, it's like a jolt of electricity.  I expected that to drop off after a couple of days, but in stead it's getting stronger.

I miss her so much.

We'll be together in a kinder tomorrow.